Yet another list - Top 10 Pet peeves

It didn't strike me to have this list because I thought it'd be mean to judge but ever since I started working, taking morning trains with a half the world.. I can't help but form this list in my head and finding reasons to justify it.

#10: OVER talkative cab drivers
It's one of those mornings.. you're late and you finally hopped on a cab. After all that mad rush in the morning trying to piece yourself together, all you want is a 15-20 minutes power nap till you reach the office. BUT NOOOOOOOOOOO... fuck my life that my cabbie needed to talk to me through out the whole damn journey. I appreciate small talks - ie: weather, how's my day.. but talking too much just really pisses me off and the worse thing is there's no way you can shut his trap up without being rude.

#9: OVER concerned cab drivers
Looks like I've alot to complain about cabbies, huh? I guess talking too much isn't the worst thing. But asking too much personal questions is a little.. crossing over the line, no? "Oh.. how long have you been with your boyfriend?", "What do you do during your free time?", "What do your parents do.." I don't like feeling like I'm obligated to answer any of your questions.

#8: Smelly people on trains (or in general, can't decide which is worse)
I don't get it. We all pay the same transport rate right? Why is it that some people can get away with NOT BATHING? *cries* Especially when the train is crazily packed, my face is almost stuffing into his/her arm pits. That short 20 minutes train ride felt like I'm being condemned to eternity of hell.

#7: Lateness
I'll never get it.

#6: Women and peeing
So you blame the men for not putting down the toilet seats but you can't even be bothered to check behind you after you flush and get out of the toilet? PLEASE, why should the next person clean up your 'leftovers' on the seat? Do you know how gross that it? We may not even be close friends but I'm already cleaning up your shit!

#5: People who don't flush
Other than the bad habit, I get extremely annoyed when I use the toilet at the mall and the moment I step in, it's clogged with paper and pee. Oh, for that moment you thought maybe the flush is not working that's why the person (or the PEOPLE) before me couldn't flush it. But nOoooooOooooooooo, they just didn't try hard enough. Sometimes you just need to press harder, just because it doesn't work the first time you have to give up. What the hell.

#4: Telephone operators who knows.. um.. NOTHING.
It always happens when I call any of the tel-cos.. Sometimes I really wonder if these operators been through training. STOP PUTTING ME ON HOLD. STOP TELLING ME WHAT I DON'T WANT TO KNOW. STOP PRETENDING LIKE YOU KNOW WHAT'S BEST FOR ME. Tyvm.

#3: People who wear sunglasses indoors.
HAHAHAHAHAHHA, seriously? Wtf? Stop being such a fuckin' poser. I bet the real reason is because you know half your face is ugly.

#2: Bad customer service
If you hate your job, find a new one. Don't vent it all on me. I don't deserve your shit.

#1: People who tells me to "Relax"
I guess this is no.1 because it really get on my nerves. When I'm really pissed off about something it's because I'm really pissed off? How can I relax? Why should I anyway? If the situation shouldn't have happen and it did, don't tell me to relax.. tell me how to solve the problem please.

Ok there it is! Another list. Happy Mid-week!

Love yourself everyday

So.. was at my mandatory medical check up for work and Doctor said my left breast felt lumpy. I know, that's why people don't go to the doctors or are afraid of going because of the fear of bad news. (I was quite pooped my bad news bearer wasn't all that cute and was really rough on me)

So.. I didn't exactly have a good night sleep last night and woke up unusually early to book the next appointment at SATA for a consultation and an ultrasound breast screening. Thank God I could do it all in one day. All that waiting and anxiety really kills. Results will be out Monday. Please don't try to show me any form of sympathy, I will kill you.

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is...... always remember to love yourself. I know body check ups are really a hassle and awkward having someone see you naked or touch your boobs but what most of us fail to know is how important it is to have ourselves checked regularly. I don't mean to sound like a cynic after one damn check but you'll never know what's going to hit you. If you must take it as paying money for a peace of your mind, so be it.

Loving yourself can be done in many different forms - retail therapy, learning something new and a lot more. How about loving your body more by going for regular body check ups every 6 to 12 months? Instead of obsessing how fat your ass look in that pair of jeans infront of the mirror, why not do something about it?

And maybe it's right, we gotta stop obsessing about the wrong things..

Anyway, Crizal eye test tomorrow! I'm PSYCHED.

Fears

Have you ever had that feeling where you didn't think much about the distant future and then when it suddenly hits you right in the face that it's actually not too far away?

Today I am uncertain. Or rather I have been all these while but I chose not to think about it for too damn long.

Today I am nervous about the future.

Today I am scared.

Today.. I don't want to be me.

What Men Want

It’s easy to talk about these types of things in absolutes. Easier than to admit that I don’t know, some men themselves don’t know, that individuals are not quantifiable items like red bricks or jars of beans.

So honestly, I don't know what Men want. Do you?

I can never be the ideal kinda girl. I have cellulite. I snore when I sleep. I laugh way too loud. I misinterpret things I don't understand. I don't know what to say at the right time. I laugh at you in the face when you got your heart broken. I can never be your ideal kind of girl.

These absolutes really boggle me to the skull of my brain. I try not to let them get anywhere near my heart, not even the left wall. Everyday we wake up trying to be someone else. Someone people would approve of. Someone people would understand. Someone people would like.

Today I painted my left big toe a total different shade of red unlike the rest and only on the top (because it fricken chipped!!!!!!!!!!!!!). Would a man like that in a woman? The randomness, the inconsistency, the irregularities, the fuck ups...

Anyway, have a good Tuesday.
You know you have all my love because you're still reading.





“We can hold a lot of ideas. We can hold a lot of grief. We can wonder if our lives might contain that other thing, just for a moment. Thought is the wrong word. Thought implies intention, which it should not.”

—	Ander Monson, “Weep No More Over This Event”

Anyway, since I'm sleepless right now, I decided to do a LIST. Yes, a list.

This is, er, a list of things I'm going to do when I'm at BKK. Yes! The trip is finally offcial! It's coming true! Can you imagine the amount of shopping? I can't.

Anyway, back to the list. I'm getting to it, RIGHT NOW.

1. Get my nails done. I placed this as top priority because I'm in serious danger of having my nails pop out of my nail beds. They're so gross right now, feels like really disgusting puke.
   
2. Get presents for family and friends (got long long list now. that's another list for another time)
   
3. Get FOOOOOOOD/SNACKSSSSS back for myself. Ok and family.
   
4. Party but promised myself I won't drink too much
   
5. MASSAGE! Need I say more?
6. See ladyboys! Don't ask me to go Changi. I want real, real, real ladyboys from thaithaithailand!
   
7. And at the bottom of the list - Sight-seeing. Who does that in BKK, anyway?
   

See, a list.
Okay, I think this is working. I'm feeling a little sleepy right now. I'm going to try lie down now.........

Somebody to love

It's official. I hate Sunday nights. I sleep too much in the day and get way too sleepless at night. This will not do.


Like Love, Sleeping is one of those things where you shouldn't need to try.

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY

.. Really I am.

Few things I've done terribly wrong this week:

1. Bought my mom an mp3 for her 51st birthday
2. Bought my mom an mp3 knowing she wouldn't know how to fucking use it
3. Bought my mom an mp3 knowing I'd be the one to help her put songs in
4. Bought my mom an mp3, ripping 1 of her CDs, and now the CD's stuck in my new MAC

Oh baby, I'm so sorry. :(
I will bring you to Dr. Azhar tomorrow and he will fix you, ok?


Dear Mom,

You've done it this time! I'm finding it hard to forgive you!
I'm going to throw a bitch fit if my baby doesn't get that metal out of her body!

Your daughter.